I was laying here having one of my daily bouts with God, where I’m in Him, and running away at the same time. It feels like I am in a storm of God’s love. No matter where I go, no matter what I do, I still find myself crashing about in this safe haven of God’s love. It actually feels like a storm crashing over me.
Having that thought reminded me of a song I fell in love with about a year ago. This is why worship is so much more than a song, when you understand and internalize the words you are singing to God, it takes you to a whole other level.
I’m caught in a sea of love that I don’t know how to navigate. My own streams of confusion, guilt, anger, sadness, tiredness, all just gets washed away in His sea, when I don’t want them to. The world around me is in chaos. People are starving, dying, crying, hoping for something more, or tired of hoping altogether, and I don’t know how to process any of it. I don’t know how to navigate this sea of love when there is a broken and dying world.
Surfing the waves of God’s grace and mercy means having the vantage point of seeing all the places in need of God. But drowning under the covering of His love does not feel comfortable for long. Eventually, I swallow so much of His heart that I can’t be content hiding when the world needs me to be whatever God has purposed me to be….for such a time as this.
For such a time as this, God gave us some likeness of Him to be that part of Him in the world. I’m not perfect. I don’t have to be. I don’t have to have every aspect of my life perfectly aligned with God’s will before I serve. I know that now. I have to be a good steward over that which God has entrusted to me. He could’ve given it to anyone else, but He chose me. And when He comes back I want to be able to give him a multiple of the talents He gave me.
Matthew 25:14-30English Standard Version (ESV)
The Parable of the Talents
14 “For it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants[a] and entrusted to them his property. 15 To one he gave five talents,[b] to another two, to another one, to each according to his ability. Then he went away. 16 He who had received the five talents went at once and traded with them, and he made five talents more. 17 So also he who had the two talents made two talents more. 18 But he who had received the one talent went and dug in the ground and hid his master’s money. 19 Now after a long time the master of those servants came and settled accounts with them. 20 And he who had received the five talents came forward, bringing five talents more, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me five talents; here I have made five talents more.’ 21 His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant.[c] You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ 22 And he also who had the two talents came forward, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me two talents; here I have made two talents more.’ 23 His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ 24 He also who had received the one talent came forward, saying, ‘Master, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you did not sow, and gathering where you scattered no seed, 25 so I was afraid, and I went and hid your talent in the ground. Here you have what is yours.’ 26 But his master answered him, ‘You wicked and slothful servant! You knew that I reap where I have not sown and gather where I scattered no seed? 27 Then you ought to have invested my money with the bankers, and at my coming I should have received what was my own with interest.